Being passive-aggressive can cost
you valuable relationships and connections. As a former passive-aggressive
person, I can testify to the fact that if you’re passive-aggressive and don’t change
your ways, you’re going to start losing things. The first time I heard the word
“passive-aggressive” was during a past season at an old part-time job. A
supervisor and I had been having a disagreement about a conflict with another
employee. I was in a leadership role at the time. While the supervisor and I
were discussing the issue over the phone, I felt like he wasn’t letting me talk
or hearing me out, so I hung up on him. Looking back, that was massively
disrespectful and I could’ve got in a lot of trouble. But the issue would’ve
never got to the supervisor in the first place, if the employee conflict had
been resolved as soon as problems were starting. Because I was in leadership, it
was my responsibility to confront the issue head on, but instead, I got annoyed
and never addressed the employee directly. I just hoped things would work out. Later, another one of my colleagues told me,
“Yeah, he (the supervisor at the time) said you were passive-aggressive.”
Another time I walked out of a beauty salon appointment with a stylist I’d
known and grown close to for years. I walked out because when I’d arrive on
time to my hair appointments that were already scheduled, she’d have me waiting
for almost thirty to forty-five minutes before styling my hair. She was either overbooked
or talking to other stylists. I’d get mad because I felt like my time was being
disrespected and I'd never say anything. I continued to keep going to her and
paying and tipping her. This went on for a few years. The day I walked out of
the salon after sitting for almost an hour, I drove away fast and was so mad I
started crying. How could she do me like
that and waste my time after I’ve been a loyal customer all these years? I
thought. Later that evening she texted me and asked where I’d went. I texted
back that I’d left. She texted back, you
could’ve said something. I can style you first thing tomorrow morning. I
didn’t respond or step foot in that salon again. It was unprofessional of her
to keep me waiting, but I should’ve spoken up sooner or just found another
stylist who valued my time. She did amazing work, but I’m no longer willing to
sacrifice my time to anyone or anything that will waste my time. Growing up, I
tried avoiding conflict as much as possible and would rarely speak up if
something was bothering or upsetting me. I did those things because I saw
adults and different family members around me behave that way. Instead of
sitting down to communicate feelings, the different people I saw would either
trash the person they were upset with behind that persons back, yell at the
person to get what they wanted, or withdraw without any communication at all.
Those are very unhealthy and damaging ways to behave. I was also scared to
speak up out of fear of love or friendships being withdrawn if I vocalized my
feelings. As I got older I started noticing a destructive pattern. Whenever a
guy, family member, or one of my friends made me upset, I’d stay quiet without
ever being straightforward about why. This would go on for awhile until things
got explosive. Once things blew up, I’d say everything I’d kept bottled up,
leaving the person on the opposite end either shocked and/or hurt. Usually no
one wins in those kinds of situations. Communication and confrontation can be
challenging depending on who’s involved and what the situation is, but one
thing for sure is that being passive-aggressive resolves absolutely nothing. My
passive-aggressiveness was a learned behavior from childhood that had to be broken. And God loved me enough to stay on me about breaking it. Frederick
Douglass once said, “It is easier to build strong children than to repair
broken men.” That quote resonates deeply. Built up childhood issues can develop
quickly, but take time to break as an adult. But the breaking is necessary for
change. Being aware of problematic patterns in my own life was an awakening. Once
I realized that you can’t control how someone feels if you speak up about how
you feel, it helped make confronting things forwardly and walking away from
irresolvable things, less daunting. Adults communicate and feelings are real. If
you’re upset, offended, angry, sad, or hurt about something, say something. Don’t
keep everything inside. People aren’t mind readers.
Ghosting: the practice of ending a personal relationship with someone by suddenly and without explanation withdrawing from all communication. I’ve been ghosted by every guy I’ve met within the past two years. About six to be exact. · The first guy pursued me and then got shady whenever I asked him about what he did for a living and where he lived. When he started dodging and avoiding questions, wouldn’t initiate dates, and slowly stopped keeping in touch with me altogether, eventually, all communication ceased. · The second guy was someone I met through a family member. He was super cool, very smart, handsome, and funny, but didn’t want to be in a relationship and acted like he didn’t want to be seen with me publicly. When we had plans to meet for an outing, he didn’t show up, and then texted me about a week later with an apology. We chilled at my place a few times, had a few phone conversations, and exchanged occasional texts, but eventually he stopped responding to me